I refuse to make references to the future with you.

I’m not bitter.

I just learned my lesson.

I should have listened to you when you said you don’t make plans ahead of time.


When life was simple

I remember when all I wanted was to smell as good as my mom after her bubble baths and do the dishes like my dad.  Go ahead and laugh but when I was younger and not allowed to do the washing part, the way my dad did it was so mesmerizing.

Just heard from my aunt today that my grandpa wants to have a going away dinner with the family before I leave.  :((((  So incredibly sweet.  I’m really going to miss my grandparents.

I haven’t really been in the blogging mood lately, hence why I never write and just stalk.  Sorry.  I’m super bored and I have the feeling I’m not going to get much sleep tonight.  I drank a cup (composed of three) of coffee this evening.  Dumb idea.  I never learn.

I used to be intelligent…

I used to read Dickens.

I used to read, period.

I mean, I still do, but not as much as I did.

I’ve never felt a passion for anything.  (Is that normal?  I haven’t even had an obsession with a band or an author, let alone the bigger stuff like life.)

I’ve never been motivated.  I’ve always settled for “average.”  Part of me doesn’t like setting high standards but most of it’s laziness.

My life is what I make of it and right now it’s boring.

I also said something to my brother today that even made me ashamed of hitting below the belt.  Why can’t I grow up?

It just seems like I take one step forward and two steps backwards.

My brain cells are dying.


New Start

Here’s to moving on…

I deleted O off my phone and off Facebook.  Usually it doesn’t take such drastic measures for me to get over someone but I needed to do it.  I feel a bit better.  Not as desperate.

I’m being social tonight and getting together with some friends tonight!  Looking forward to that pool (it’s 90F here)…

Also, I made my first batch of pesto with my basil plants!  The future recipes need tweaking but it was a tasty start!

Happy July 1st!



Later note:

This night was awesome.  Road trip to nowhere, TBell, and music blaring.  I’m beat…